Taking a Step Back

Hardly any time for myself these days. Not that I enjoy it but yes it does leaves me wondering what I am doing?

I guess everyone remembers my rants of being a workaholic and guess what it still give me a high then again it’s something that I have cut back on.

One of the things you might find surprising is that I actually waited for around six years to do something that I wanted to do so badly.  The reason for not doing was that I was too busy with my own life to reach my goals which apparently is still on the works.

I am going to be honest that I am a man of ambition or more like passionate about the things that I do. I guess I am starting to realize that a 9 to 5 job is not for me. Just because one is suppose to earn for a living. Need to be at a place which gives you that satisfaction and also pursue other things in life. I know it’s a hard one to find.

Other than that, I realize that I have a tendency to hold myself back. Its silly that sometimes even when one their facts, they still end up doing the same thing in such situations. I am not quite sure what need to be done here.

Uncertainty in life is one thing that I have hated the most. I realize that one cannot do anything about it, that sometimes even when you do the right things, its not necessary that everything could work out. I guess its better to go with the flow of life then keep asking question of why’s and what’s which never gets answered….

I know that the post might be a little gibberish but that’s how I feel right now. Sometimes been all by yourself is not such a bad thing at all.

P.S. Surprised that my post on Childhood is one of the highest viewed post on this blog, glad you all liked it so much.

Calling Her

Varun looked at the number in his cell phone and wondered if he should call her up. It was almost 3 years that they knew each another and had recently exchanged numbers in the hope of talking to each other.

He knew her for such a long time as an online friend that he forgot how they had become friends. He remembered everything what she liked, disliked and secretly wished to fall in love with her.

Staring at her number, he wondered what it would be like to connect with her in real life rather than living in the fantasy world where she was the princess of his dreams and he her knight in armor.

The thought of making the contact had him in jitters. He knew he would love to meet her in person and relive his dream but was afraid of his dream being broken into pieces. What if they were not as good as they wanted to be, what if they did not liked each other as they thought they would have?

He looked at the number and asked himself should he take that chance or live the dream that he has been living on happily?

He looked at the number and pressed the dial button not knowing what it was going to be as the phone started ringing and the voice on the other side “Hello”…

The Virus Incident

You are going to read about “The Virus Incident” so make sure that you study the above image with care to get a better understanding.

Here are some pointers:

Area 1: The site where the incident occurred
Area 2: The site that could have been exposed to the virus
Area 3: Confidential. You will come to know of this later.

For Your Eyes Only

This happened when I was new to my job and was still getting familiar to the working environment. It happened to be the night shift and apparently there was no work. So after having fun, everyone decided that it was time to get some sleep which happened to be “Site II”. The lights were dimed creating a sleepy atmosphere. Still I was awake, never had the tendency to fall asleep at work even when I did not had a proper sleep.

I decided to surf the net which happen to be the “Site I” place. I was very high on forming an alumni association of my college back then so I found myself landed on such a site and even connected with some of my school friends then. This was the age when there was no Orkut or Facebook around.

I decided to write an email to one of my school buddy who had replied me back on that site. Along with me was a friend who was standing on the chair and observing what I was upto.

As I was writing back to him, I heard a hoarse voice saying to me “You are not supposed to do that”.

I turned around to find a tall, healthy older guy wearing glasses standing behind me telling me that you are not allowed to access emails. Given my ignorance I told him that I was not accessing any email accounts and that the desktop that I was using was specific for internet uses only.

Still I was told to close it which I did as I thought that the guy was from the IT dept. By then my colleague had gotten up from her chair. As the murmurs grew louder, one of the guys from the “Site II” was awaken. I must mention here that there were some people who had developed an expertise in sleeping on two chairs that too moving ones. A mystery that still puzzles me.

The next thing I know is that I heard a singing voice oblivious to the situation that was going on. I turned around to find it coming from “Site III” where a colleague who seemed to be in his own world singing a song loudly. Both I and the other fellow were watching him, wondering what the hell he was up to.

If that was a sight, then it just got better as I saw the person who was awaken from his deep slumber crawling towards the red chair in full sight of the other guy. He reached toward the red chair and tried to awaken the girl who happened to be our shift supervisor.

All this while there was a pin drop silence as he made his attempts to awaken her and succeeded. She got up and then spoke to the fellow and then we came to know there was a virus issue in one of the departments. He wanted us to check if the anti virus program was up to date in all the workstations. Once that was started he left.

Next thing I know, I was being hailed as a hero. The girl who was there with me told the other people that it was because of me that he did not came to the “Site II” or else everyone would have been in big trouble.

Guess who the guy turned out to be. He was not an IT guy but the vice president of the company. Apparently he could access any department, ours was a biometric access. We never came to know when he came in given that I was seated next to the entrance. The thought in my mind was what the hell he was doing in office in the middle of the night.

Then again, nothing feels better than been hailed as a HERO.