Astrology, Puja & Tantriks

I am a strong believer of Karma. As you sow so shall you reap. Still there have been times when I have not seen the same happen. It may take time to for one to pay for their bad deeds, but it will happen. Makes me wonder why I still believe in Karma?

In an Indian family, like a family doctor there will be a family astrologer whose advice is always seek before doing anything. Sometimes people approach them with silly questions like “whether my son will pass with distinction or not?”

I don’t follow astrology much but my family does. Recently it so happened that I was the one who also took part in the ritual of seeking advice of the astrologer regarding some issues. I have never done that before but just to seek clarity, I went ahead. At the end of the conversation with the astrologer, I was asked if I was satisfied. I was not but you cannot say that on the face right?

I still take a very bleak view of what they say unless they start making bang on predictions. Some people follow it very blindly and even take the advice given too seriously. If life could be so easily predicted why the hell people would have still problems in their life?

Then there are pujas that are needed to perform to appease the gods or get rid of some doshas that can be seen in your horoscope. This again makes me wonder; can by doing a puja; things will change for the better? I remember pujas being conducted to appease the rain gods so that there will be good amount of rain downpour which did not happen.

It more looks like the case of satisfying one’s mental thoughts that by doing such rituals, things will improve. Even when they don’t work out people still don’t lose out on their beliefs. Should that be considered as smart or just being plain dumb?

Also heard about people visiting tantriks so that things could work their way or trying to influence people. These are very much part of reality and is quite scary too. If god is supposed to be the ultimate power, who gave these people the right to mess with it and what is god doing about it, for people who have been affected by the same? If you ever head down south in India, these are very much part of people’s lives.

I was even told to wear certain gemstones as a kid and have never done that. It makes me wonder if by wearing a gemstone, can I stop the effect of something bad that is going to happen. There are many people out there who can be seen wearing them. Don’t really know if it makes the difference or not.

Do you think they give us the clarity that we need or is it just better to take life as it comes no matter what?

Marriage Blues

A couple of weeks back; I got mobbed by my relatives who were hell bent on seeing me getting married.

I am not sure what is wrong with people as soon as you reach a certain age; the only thing in people’s mind is to see you get married.  Does not matter what you want to do in life or not, you should get married first.

I guess its tough for girls more than the guys especially women who are career oriented.  I somehow manage to dodge the bullet that day.

To come to think of it, I don’t think I am ready to get married even though I like the idea of settling down.  Don’t know what makes others to settle down except the need of a companion or it could be just plain sex.

I think I am not ready to take the responsibility of someone who will be moving away from her home and making my place her home.  I know that my thoughts might sound cliché but those are my thoughts on marriage.  Man taking care of his wife.

Also one of the other reasons being the fact that there are so many things one needs to accomplish in life. Don’t know if marriage fits into the bill?

I wonder if these are jitters of being in a stage where you at the point being getting married at some point.  Then again it’s only after marriage one will know where they stand.

So did/do you had/have any marriage blues?

Emptiness

Do you ever feel the void that reflects the emptiness within you when you are lost in your world?

I have felt that emptiness within me more than once. I wondered if it was saying something to me or was it just mocking me that we are alone no matter what we have or where we are.  Always wondered if others felt it too and how they dealt with it?

I have done stupid things to get over the emptiness and yet it stays within me.  There are times when it keeps me sane, be myself.  Yet there are times when I simply want to get rid of it.

The emptiness also reminds me of a poem that I read during school days where God gives everything to man that he wishes but the one thing that he does not give is “peace”.

No matter what we do, we achieve its only temporary.  At the back of our mind, we always feel that we could have done better, deserve more and hence not always content with what we receive…