Marriage Blues

A couple of weeks back; I got mobbed by my relatives who were hell bent on seeing me getting married.

I am not sure what is wrong with people as soon as you reach a certain age; the only thing in people’s mind is to see you get married.  Does not matter what you want to do in life or not, you should get married first.

I guess its tough for girls more than the guys especially women who are career oriented.  I somehow manage to dodge the bullet that day.

To come to think of it, I don’t think I am ready to get married even though I like the idea of settling down.  Don’t know what makes others to settle down except the need of a companion or it could be just plain sex.

I think I am not ready to take the responsibility of someone who will be moving away from her home and making my place her home.  I know that my thoughts might sound cliché but those are my thoughts on marriage.  Man taking care of his wife.

Also one of the other reasons being the fact that there are so many things one needs to accomplish in life. Don’t know if marriage fits into the bill?

I wonder if these are jitters of being in a stage where you at the point being getting married at some point.  Then again it’s only after marriage one will know where they stand.

So did/do you had/have any marriage blues?

Emptiness

Do you ever feel the void that reflects the emptiness within you when you are lost in your world?

I have felt that emptiness within me more than once. I wondered if it was saying something to me or was it just mocking me that we are alone no matter what we have or where we are.  Always wondered if others felt it too and how they dealt with it?

I have done stupid things to get over the emptiness and yet it stays within me.  There are times when it keeps me sane, be myself.  Yet there are times when I simply want to get rid of it.

The emptiness also reminds me of a poem that I read during school days where God gives everything to man that he wishes but the one thing that he does not give is “peace”.

No matter what we do, we achieve its only temporary.  At the back of our mind, we always feel that we could have done better, deserve more and hence not always content with what we receive…

Busy :(((

That’s how my life has been for the last few weeks.  Not that I have been complaining, except for the sleep perhaps.

One of the funny things that I noticed in the recent weeks is how easy it is to create a bad image of someone even though the person never did any such thing.  Gossip is said to be past time of girls but I think some of the guys can beat them on that.  I can vouch.

My name tally went up to the count of five.  People do silly things when they take decisions emotionally.  I was one of them and now I see someone else.  Taking a decision is not the hard part, but standing by it is the hardest.  I guess they are lucky that I am around which I was not. Let’s hope they could see light at the end of the tunnel and not do anything stupid.

I think I found my Jaya Badhuri and she, her Amitabh Bachanan. Then again it would only result in pain for both of our necks.  Par dooriyan aanewale hain, aur waqt bahut kam hain. (The time left is few and there is going to be distance).  So I don’t think anything is going to happen :(

That’s it for now, will post later…